God is good!

Ever since I decided to into nursing I knew that I wanted to be a L&D nurse. Earlier this yr I felt so discouraged and maybe God was trying to tell me that this isn't something he wanted me to do. But slowly I felt God move me in ways I never knew he wanted me to go. So I've prayed and prayed about this possiblity and even just getting into a program. This summer I learned about praying passionately the consistancy of prayer. I thought about how I prayed before and how it was so routine. Something had to change, the way I prayed and how I felt when I prayed. I also felt God calling me to go over seas to help people who don't have much medical assistance. This was something God has put on my mind a few yrs ago, but this yr its was spoken to me so loudly.

I'm applying to nursing school with a friend of mine. I've always been freaked out: Am I going to get in? Is this really what God want me to do? How do I know? If it isn't what do I do? I had all these questions, but now I feel like most of them have been answered. This time last yr, I was very emotional when it came to discussing school and career goals. But now, I'm not freaked out. I know that what God wants will be done. I know that he is leading me the right way.

This morning I felt a bit upset and envious because I was comparing myself to everyone else. Thinking about why it took me so long to get where I am. While walking around on my 5hrs break I stumbled upon this card, which I only picked up because it had a cute penguin on it, that read "the best things come when you least expect it". That card was so random, but it really turned my day around. Its so amazing to feel that God is always around.

That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:10

we got back from alaska a few days ago. and the trip was amazing. it was so beautiful. there are just too many pictures to upload again so if you want to see them go here

http://travel.webshots.com/album/564181594DuOafQ

WALL-E spoiler *caution*

so i'm sitting here wait for the delivery guys to come with my new sofa/loveseat and also trying to get ready for mel and wayne's wedding because i know i wont have time when they get here. *CONGRATS TO MEL AND WAYNE!*

last weekend jr. and sr. highs went on a rafting retreat in Davis. It was HOT! but i think the kids had a good time. it started off a bit shakey. one kid had heat exhaustion, someone lost their glasses at the bottom of the river, people didnt want to water fight, poison oak, and a very big swollen bite by something. but after all that we had a blast. tons of water flying every where. we got crushed by others during the water fight due to our malfunctioning dipsticks. after returning, we had a small group time, which i really enjoyed even though my voice was gone. actually i think thats why i liked it, not because that meant i didnt have to lead a small group, but because i got to let dana lead most of it. (note: even though we teach jr highs, i've never got to see her in action) so it was really encouraging to see her connect with the kids and to see how she handles tough issues to 6th graders. she did really good. i liked how she asked her questions, she's so patient too. sad that she will be leaving us next yr. she will be missed. but im sure she'll be having a blast going off to further her education in davis.

*WALL-E ALERT* sort of not a spoiler just what i got from the movie, just in case some of you dont want to know anything before watching it

last night a few of us went to watch WALL-E. i really liked it. the most part of the movie dialogue was WALL-
E... , EVE-A.. hehe cute! what i learned from WALL-E (but should already know) is we all need to RECYCLE, EXERCISE, LESS TV, and avoid meals that come in cups ahah. it was a really simple movie, cute and enjoyable. my fav. character, MO (foreign contaminates)! hehe

summer is here. there are some exciting things coming lined up for this summer. from birthdays, weddings to alaska! i'll update as these events go by.

chris o has invited me to a Giants game tomorrow. my first of the season. =) yay garlic fries.
as for alaska, im most excited for. its been in the planning since dec 07 so i've been looking forward to this for a long time, now its about a month away and i want to start packing now.

i'll update when they happen =)

p.s as for the previous post, i've been running more and sort of found a running/exercise partner.

I usually don't like to write/type in this thing, but instead i like to read what people write. Only because i feel i dont get to talk to people about how they are doing so this is the  next closes thing (i guess). but i felt i needed to write so i can hopefully get some opinions.

this past month i've been saying that i need to find  myself a new running partner. but i think its all an excuse so i dont have to go running anymore. On my free days i tell myself "ok, im going today", but it never happens and at the end of the day i say "what a wasted day". so i think, if i really found someone else to run with would that really make me motivated to go? i have no idea. i think i need to start wanting it again. so then the question is whats changed from last yr to this yr? why am i not motivated anymore? because i still think running is fun. why am i being lazy? ahh i dont know.

if you think you have a tip as to how i can become motivated again, please let me know.